Letter #4

This is for my current boyfriend. I was in a 2 year relationship with someone who treated me terribly but our romance was like something out of a chick flick. Lots of "you're the love of my life, I can't live without you, blah blah blah." But we broke up after he cheated on me several times. Somehow it only made my belief in love stronger, however. Especially because even if he didn't treat me well, I knew Istill had the ability to love someone with all my heart. Then I met my current boyfriend. It started very slowly and I was certain it was just going to be a summer fling. Everything was so calm and there was no drama I was sure something had to be wrong, but now I realize that's exactly what's right. While we acknowledge that we love each other very much and we do have the mushy moments, everything is far more genuine. We're best friends, he makes me laugh, and inspires me to try new things. Instead of fights that end in tears we rarely
argue, if we do have an argument it lasts about five minutes. I'm not saying relationships can't have fighting, but I think successful ones talk things through and come from an understanding that you're not going to agree 100% of the time, if you agree 60% of the time you're lucky. And with that; this goes out to the love of my life:

There are things I’d never tell you, because I know how you get,
But still there are things I write to you so that I’ll never forget.
I can’t tell you the last time I felt this inspired,
I’m so in love with you that it’s making me tired.
And even though we don’t have a song,
You keep playing in my head on and on and on.

I was hit with a gun wound bleeding through and through,
I was hit so hard and I went falling falling falling into you.
I used to be a poet my page never went blank,
I lost that somewhere but here it is back again it’s you I thank.
And even though we don’t have a song,
You keep playing in my head on and on and on.

I can’t lie and say I’m not scared in fact I feel dizzy and winded,
I am so exposed, so vulnerable, and feeling at all is something you’ve reminded.
It’s only been a little while and I said I was sure,
But tonight I’m feeling like I never have before.
And even though we don’t have a song,
You keep playing in my head on and on and on.

I am a 20 year old female from Western Massachusetts, and a HUGE
believer in love <3